Friday, September 23, 2011

Meta

Social Networking enables me to fragment.

I know and adore several folks who are consistently true to themselves across all social networking mediums - but I am not one of them.

I need my mask. It's the only way I feel remotely comfortable expressing any genuine thoughts.

I need to know that I won't show up at work or at a family gathering with a giant EXCLAMATION POINT hovering over my head.

I want to express how I feel and not be held accountable for it. I am a coward.

I feel comfortable declaring my geeky love for books and movies, but not about social or political actions. I have opinions, and I keep them to myself - because above and beyond all else - I am non-confrontational. And my views could possibly be taken as the first sally in an argument that I never intended nor wanted in the first place.

I retreat here, where I can count on one hand the number of folks who know my real name.

I want to be a better person - if only to be a good role-model for my daughter - but I'll settle for owning the fact that I can't be "everybody's everything," read to her every night, and hope for the best.

Muffin's a smart girl - got a 100 on her very first spelling test today! She'll figure it out better than I ever could and I'll support her every step of the way.